Passion Reactions: Wrestling With Your Call & 3 Ways to Remain Humble

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Do you wrestle with your call?

There are times I’m politically driven and times I’m inseparable from the Word. I find it hard to navigate between the two. Sometimes they live together and sometimes I hold them separately like how the maple syrup shouldn’t touch the eggs at breakfast time.

I’m learning how to come from a place of grace when I write. And am equally learning how to write from a deep well of hurt to present solutions instead of writing from a reactionary point of view.

I have bouts of passion reactions. It’s beautiful to be a passionate person – delicate, brava, soul-stirring, fists raised. It is also crippling. For me.

I wrestle with my call to write just as Jacob wrestled with God.


God, what do you need me to write about?

Most of the time there is no response. That very moment is the loneliest place I’ve been present in. It feels like being placed in a dark room and expected to emerge unscathed. This is where, as a writer, as an Esther, I must learn to walk more confidently in faith.

We need to get to the place where we can walk uncharted waters without the voice in our heads spreading doubt and confusion.

“Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you will call me…”

Spirit, reveal within me the place where God says, “Go!” And I just, go…


Jesus asks of us

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,   Colossians 3:23

Note the times you want to react. Note the times your passion becomes reactionary instead of educated. Gather time into your hands and wait with her. Our explosive reactions will subside and our educated, articulated responses will suddenly fill with grace.

Humility and bravery can walk hand in hand wrapped in grace. {Tweet This} It’s at this point we are our best selves.

Here is how to accomplish that:

1. Wake in prayer

God, how do you want me to answer my call today? Where do you need me? Please give me confidence to live out this call. May your light shine in every way possible.

2. Journal it out

It’s easier to tweet or FB out a reactionary thought before it becomes an educated solution. Use that time to fill in your journal. Great ideas can spark from journaling your thoughts.

3. Collect knowledge not followers

We’re not very popular when we’re tweeting how we feel. It’s easier for someone to hit the unfollow button because of a few tweets instead of getting to know you. You know this because the followers you know in real life aren’t the ones so trigger happy. Remember Jesus only had 12.

As long as what we do flows from these three places, our calling will not be in vain. We can keep pressing on and moving forward. The world needs you. I need you.

Be blessed, friend.

Amor y Abrazos,


 Linked at Heart Encouragement Thursday