#FiveMinuteFriday: Lift

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I’m joining #FiveMinuteFriday over at Kate Motaung’s place. The word prompt is LIFT. Below is five minutes of free flowing writing. The forward slashes indicate where the timer started and ended. Go!

lift-600x600//I felt the weight of the night lift off of me. At daybreak, I tried to remember what she said, “His mercies are new each day.” I crossed the room, barefooted and lightheaded. How long would I pay for the mistakes of my past?

I pulled at the worn jeans in my closet, grabbed a twice-worn shirt and clothed myself. Depression doesn’t magically disappear. Another day and another mighty force to overcome. And the answers weren’t arriving fast enough.

I was young then, lost on the language of doctors and adults who said I was just being a spoiled kid. It could be worse. I wondered how long I would dance alongside that beat. How long would I have to deal with the dark inside?

I felt the weight of the dark lifted off of me. I met Him in the middle of a retreat in 2013. As he was lifted onto the cross that afternoon, he drew my dark with him. Like a mute given the power to speak, he wrapped my depression around his body.

Clothed in white, he hung in front of the crowd. The retreatants wept and I listened. I listened before I wept. I watched him hang for me.// There is no greater glory than the voice I was given when I saw him crucified. Although it was a play, it was much more than that to me.

I will never forget the dark lifted off of me.


Disclaimer: I am a recovered depressive. The journey of depression is different for each of us. Some of us choose medication which I condone as part of a treatment plan with a therapist. Whatever path you take for recovery, trust that you are loved and cherished by the Most High. 

This is not a fleshed out piece or advice for treating depression. This is a five-minute free write on the word LIFT. It brought back a memory of when I was depressed and how God lifted me out of that. It’s merely a flashback of my personal account.

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